Thursday, May 18, 2006

Bad News...

Wow !! how bad can this go...

We are already waiting for last 7 weeks and today I was told that it might take about 5-6 more weeks before she can join me here in Switzerland. Sometimes I feel why the hell did I accept the assignment...

Its proving to be anti-family happiness thing since day 1. First it turns out that organization has not done any homework to support employees in their pursuit to start regular family life here on year or more longer assignments. Pathetic.

Well, I know it wouldn't help to curse or crib about the organization. What's happened has already happened. No benefit from cribbing over it... but then where does frustration go.. here in this blog by saying names to the people who are responsible for this.

I know, nobody would quite like to read my frustration, so I#d better shut up... really..

However, the fact remains, my apple-pie is not going to join me for some more Weeks, it feels as if its not weeks but years. I took the news very badly.. really.. for sometime i was feeling as if my head is spinning and i couldn't think as to what to do. The brain just didn't work.

During the day, one of the old friends wrote to me and poor fellow had to be on the receiving end of some of my situation... It was kinda strange though.. in those few lines.. i complained to him about almost everything that I could never have imagined otherwise. Also, the last days I had a bad awakening with some other old friends... sort of falling apart.. and i guess that also came out in that mail. I could only feel that now.. bit out of that situation mould...

its true that during these two-three weeks i have never felt more lonely. That's very strange for me since I tend to like my solitude and lose myself in various things.. books, internet, and now writing perhaps...movies for sure... but these days this visa thing and that mail conversation with friends just did me something, perhaps never had known that in myself....

ANd, the problem is, I can't forget the fact about her absence... time and again it comes back to me.... Now after a few hours after the news came through, i can hardly say i am back in shape. I am really doing good. actually very bad. Trying to read, can't make myself like this spy story by Ken Follet.


Then there are some movies waiting here for me on rented DVDs of course ... didn't feel like watching any....

Will add more to this when i feel better....

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